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Sexual Fantasy as Masturbation



Where masturbation is concerned, I love touch and I'm fond of toys, but I want to take some time to write about my favorite and often underappreciated aspect of masturbation: sexual fantasy.


I am a bit biased. When I started masturbating as an early teen, I didn't use touch at all. I had an ability to "think myself off" or attain an orgasm through sexual fantasy (or even just sexual thoughts) without touching myself, or even moving at all. As a teenager, I really didn't get why all my friends would make those jokes about "touching yourself at night." I mean, you didn't have to touch yourself to masturbate, right?


Well, eventually I figured out that most people do indeed touch themselves when they masturbate. 


Luckily for me, I did some reading on a sex-positive site and was assured that it's ok to have an orgasm from sexy thoughts alone and if that's how I wanted to masturbate then I should not be ashamed for doing so. Thus I never even tried to masturbate with touch until I was in college.


Though I can achieve orgasm through sexual thoughts, the role that sexual fantasy and masturbation plays in my sexuality is much more profound.


There are many times that I use sexual fantasy without the intent to orgasm. I find that having a sexual fantasy before I go to sleep helps me relax and I can often fall asleep easier. When I'm having a sexual fantasy, my body feels good. I am aroused, certainly, but there are other emotions as well, most notably a sense of tenderness or comfort that tingles through the excitement.


I live with a physical disability and there are many times when my body does not feel the best. I have pain, stiffness, and fatigue. But a steady dose of sexual fantasy helps ease my muscles and the pains in my body and the little escape in my mind can help me cope with other stress in my life.


You probably won't be surprised when I note I am an avid reader and writer of erotica. I encourage people to exercise their sexual fantasy muscles by reading erotica and finding writers or themes you know you will enjoy. I have a couple titles tucked away on my bookshelf just waiting for a rainy day.


You may also watch movies with sensual themes, look up erotic photography, or watch pornography. These things can be experienced and enjoyed alone or with a partner as an outlet to share certain tastes or garner new ideas.


There are several things I love about sexual fantasy as masturbation. One is that it allows you to be anyone you want. You can change genders, time travel, or experiment being a top or a bottom if you don't usually take that role.


Another thing is that it allows you to explore and get satisfaction from a scenario you don't want to act out in real life. While erotica and sexual fantasy can definitely be used to bring ideas into your sexual repertoire, there are many fantasies I have and types of erotica I read or write in which I would not want to act out with any of my current partners. Not because I think the content of the fantasies are dangerous or evil or some such thing, but because the energy dynamics between my partners don't fit the fantasy and I get the most satisfaction reading other characters doing the scenes or imagining them in my head.


Ultimately, sexual fantasy gives me another outlet for my sexuality that is fulfilling and teaches me things about myself and my body. I encourage everyone to take some time with sexual fantasy and be open to the surprising ways it can enhance your sexual identity, sexual encounters, and masturbation.




And for some further reading, check out some of these past posts:




 



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  1. Very much appreciate your take on reading erotic stories. I like the fact that you can be anyone you want to be in erotic fantasy - even scenarios that you would never entertain in real life. Good post!

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    1. Thanks for reading! I find I change who I am a lot in sexual fantasy, or can at least express parts of myself that other people rarely acknowledge or even know exists. It's fantastic.

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